Day 12

Can you all believe it?!!? Day 12, really? I'm hungry, I want real food, I want to chew something, but it isn't driving me insane anymore, well not all the time anyway. I swam today and made it to 30 laps. That's a first for me. I'm at 269 today, I never thought I'd see the 60's again, I know that sounds horrible because I have so much farther to go but it's honest. :)

Day 10 & 11- Ooopsy

I forgot to make an entry last night, sorry. I've been rocking along alright. We swam for a long while last night but didn't tonight because I'm having stomach issues. All I'm gonna say about that is I don't wanna be soaking wet in the deep end of the pool and have to go right now (which is how it's going for me at the moment).

I'm honestly still having cravings and having trouble making food for these other people in my house that want it. I made a roast yesterday and ohmygoodness I could've dived right in the crock pot. I used potatoes that we grew and I would love to know how they tasted. One fine day I will get the opportunity.  I'm down 14lbs for an even 270. I hope my belly doesn't stay as freakish looking as it is now, I think I'd rather have stayed fatter.

Day 9

I'm losing track of the days here, grateful that I started blogging so I can keep up with myself. So tomorrow is day 10. That's almost unreal to me, I never thought that I would make it this far.

While I was swimming tonight I realized that I've been medicating with food. I love to swim on my back and look up at the sky, especially if it's overcast. I don't have to try to float, I cannot not float so I have to remember to keep moving in the water or I will waste my time floating around like a buoy.

One thing I don't like it how my belly is changing, it's just different and the stretch marks are closer together now and more noticable than they used to be. There is more of a definition between my top roll and my bottom roll, it's nasty. I'm 271lbs now. Hopefully it will get better.

Day 8

Okay, one week down, I honestly didn't know if I'd get this far. I made chicken and yellow rice and squash for dinner. Oh my but I wanted to scarf down a huge plate! It smelled amazing. Instead I swigged my juice and went swimming for a while. I'm down to 272 so that's 12lbs so far. I love being on the Facebook page for the Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead movie. So much support and humor there, when I'm hungry I go read posts from other juicers, it helps. See y'all tomorrow :)

Day 7

Ooopsy, forgot to blog yesterday. We drove 3 hours to Pensacola to go to the Naval Museum, so 6 hours in a car and I was ready for bed when we got home. Had a great time seeing everything. I took some juice with me so I wouldn't have any excuse to not stick with the plan. We got home late so I didn't swim or weigh myself. Driving home was really hard, ordering Bob and the boys Wendy's and smelling it, I was about ready to rip a french fry outta someone's grimy hands! But I drank my stupid cup of water and drove on. Can't believe it's day 7.

Day 6

So in the scheme of things I'm no where near done but 6 down ain't nothing to sniff at to me. I'm 10lbs down. Don't know how but hey I am not gonna knock it! Swam for a good long while. Used kiwi fruit for the first time tonight, note to self, peel that kiwi so I don't get that oh so yummy mouth full o' pubes texture. It's less than pleasant.

We are driving to Pensacola in the morning to go an aviation museum. I bought some juice to take with me. I can't see me juicing on the road. Hopefully it will go well. Thanks for reading and I will post tomorrow. :)

Day 5

 Day 5 was hard. I went and purchased a birthday cake for a family member for their party tonight. I hadn't stepped foot in a grocery store since I started this. Too much temptation. We went over to my parent's house for dinner, they had Domino's for the birthday party. (See previous posting about Domino's, and then play that Alanis song "Ironic") I know I'm gonna have to deal with this but my word this first week has been hell.

 I broke down in Bob's arms tonight. Can't really pin point why. I feel lonely, food was my friend, if Bob was busy on the computer I could eat, I feel unhappy, food boosted me up. If I was sad, I ate too. While I know I have a thyroid that is sluggish I also know that I don't make wise food choices too often. I am trying to change my life here and damn is it hard. A lot of thoughts and memories from the past, some from way, way back are creeping up, stuff from childhood. Maybe I shoved stuff down, literally!, and didn't really feel or process some things. I feel so vulnerable. The thought of more juice makes me wanna puke. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I didn't swim because of storms, I also apparently am up a pound. WTF. See you all tomorrow.

Day 4

Great news! My headache didn't carry over into today. Yesterday was so so so hard because of it. We had a pretty okay day. I'm not starving either. Don't get me wrong, I could eat, I'm not gonna lie. But at least I'm not having to listen to my belly grumble all dang day. Cooking for others isn't easy, I kinda feel resentful. Like I shouldn't have to be cooking for these people. But I do. I swam again. It's easier than trying to walk anywhere in this Florida heat. I'm currently 276, so that's good. 8lbs. so far since Sunday. I'd love it if I could make it to an even 200, but that's 84lbs and I just ain't sure that's doable. I know that other people that have done this have dropped major amounts of weight. But I'll be happy with anything. Thanks for stopping by!

Day 3

Tired as hell, I actually took a nap today which I don't like to do. Such a headache, must be from the no coffee or tea. Day 3 is a bitch. I swam, I'm now 280 instead of 284. Yip-freakin-ee I'm going to bed, well I'm already in bed so what I actually mean is I'm going to fall asleep to Star Trek on Netflix.

Day 2

I woke up at 3:30 a.m. and was hungry as expletive deleted. I went swimming last night and hope to do it nightly. Sipping on the first juice of the day now and I finally got the balls to put one celery stalk in it. I abhor celery. I can't taste it, juicing is amazaballs if I can sneak in stuff I wouldn't touch with a 10ft pole otherwise.

Also, I had no coffee this morning. I am in pain. And that's funny because I never drank coffee before last January when I started staying with my aunt at night. I started drinking it out of sheer need to stay awake and now I'm addicted. Ain't that about a bitch, guess that's how addictions work though.

After Ian's evaluation for homeschooling this morning Daddy took them out to lunch. We went to a place that had chicken wings. Now many people may not know that my body doesn't run on blood, it runs on hot wing sauce. They all had a wonderful lunch, the boys and Daddy. I sat there looking like a dumbass. Instead of having my usual 16 piece hot with fries and extra hot sauce, I came home and juiced up a carrot, green apple, lemon, spinach, kale, celery concoction. It's good but it sure ain't no chicken wang.

I just went on Livestrong to log my food. ( I had an account long ago but I'm sure it's old and dusty and couldn't begin to remember the log on info- I tried and couldn't log in so I made a new account.) Anyway, there's a freakin Domino's ad on the MyPlate page where I'm putting in my juice that consists of fruits and vegetables, nothing that even resembles pizza. Le sigh.

We swam again tonight, it was nice. I made a juice tonight that had a beet in it. I apparently still hate them, they taste like dirt. I "sucked" it up so to speak and drank it but I am not convinced  that I will be using beets regularly if at all. I'm tired and want another juice but I'm too damn lazy to put the juicer together and make another one tonight. Maybe that's the secret of juicing weight loss, it's too labor intensive. And apparently I weigh 281.3 tonight, Sunday I was 284, so that's a 2.69lb difference, hey look Ma, I did math!

Day 1... D Day

 So, if you don't love Pauly Shore the way I do you may not get the blog title I picked. I thought it rather witty and entertaining. Let me allow you to bask in the genius that is Pauly Shore by adding a YouTube vid from that cinematic classic, Encino Man.

  Now that you are either laughing with a ping of nostalgia or still lost let's dive into the issue at hand, juicing. What exactly am I doing? Well, I'm taking fruits and veggies and putting them into the juicer and making juice to drink for the next 60 days. Hot damn don't it sound easy? Why yes I think it does so, what's the catch? The catch is I'm drinking juice...only. No actual mastication will be taking place. Easy now, reread that last little bit if you're wondering what that has to do with anything. What I'm talking about it abstaining from chomping into a cheeseburger, breezing my way through a burrito, slamming thru a sammich. Sounds like fun right? Yeah, I didn't think so either.

  So why, Jessica, what in the world are ya doing, where did you get this idea? I saw a brilliant film called Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead.  (watch the trailer, it's good) It's hard to admit that I am fat. I know it intellectually, I understand it in my brain yet I don't want to deal with all that comes along with accepting it. But I feel like shit every day. (Sorry Gramma) I am going to turn 29 in two months and I don't think that most people my age feel the way I do. I need to make a change, I'm 5'3' and 284 pounds. I want no pills or crap to buy and get addicted to, believe it or not I am concerned about my health, contrary to the obvious. This makes sense to me, veggies and fruits. I need to retrain my taste buds. Hopefully this is going to be the kickstarter that helps me change for the better. Maybe I will add before and after pics, I promise nothing. I don't want to scare everyone :)